TO COURT OR NOT TO COURT
To court or not to court, that is the question…
This is the definition of the word, COURT:
People don’t court anymore. They say that’s “thirst” or being “thirsty”. And I say that’s some bullshit.
In my “youth” I courted my share of women. I remember getting my first credit card at a jewelry store for a gift for my first lover. She wanted a 18KT, diamond cut rope for Christmas. I had just met her the night before Thanksgiving, and here I was making life decisions for a woman I hadn’t even had sex with yet. What can I say? I was courting her.
It’s been many, many, many years since I honestly courted and pursued a woman. Its so easy to fall into a [lesbian] relationship, and/or a “situation” that turns into a relationship. Which is why I really intend to allow a woman to get to know me…ALL of me, before deciding if she wants to court me or be courted by me.
We are always our worst critic, and love disappointments are murder on our egos. And let’s be frank, it takes money, and/or one hell of an imagination to court properly. But again, these days little things are considered corny, and lame. Mixed cd’s, love letters, and promise rings, have been replaced with iPhones, tablets, Retro Air Jordan’s, and red bottoms. Yet still…this is viewed as “tricking”, “chasing”, or “sponsoring”.
For someone “older”, and new to the single life…it’s a bit confusing. But make no mistake, if I’m “courting” you, I consider you wife material, and I ultimately intend to make you my wife. However, I’m not spending my bread to give or receive head. I am not a sugar mama, sponsor, or an option for a plane ticket to Atlanta. It’s hard out here for the good guy…I swear.
Anyhoo, as I stand in the middle of my crossroads, I contemplate courting…Her. I like her and I honestly feel she’s worthy. She is one of the most intriguing, talented, beautiful, guarded, women I have ever met. I find her quite appealing, and the more time we spend together, the more addicted I become. Her awkwardness and dysfunction excites me… I’m weird. *billie shrug
But what scares me the most about courting… The side effects: addiction to smiles, voices, smells, and tastes. may cause you to neglect yourself, bank account may decrease significantly, daily daydreaming, sexual thoughts that may require you to pack extra underwear, periodic moments of hurt feelings and misunderstandings, and the worst…no guarantees…
Billie Simone © 2014